Its Time to Keep Living
Once upon a time we must have been star crossed lovers.
A different lifetime ago.
We must of had some horrible conflict.
Our souls could not forgive.
Then in this lifetime you found me.
My heat was closed.
Celibate, learning to love my self.
My life soon exploded as if a volcano had erupted.
Your came falling from the molten lava into sight.
I remember watching you, your beautiful face, that smile.
I was drawn in already, you were a lesson that I had to learn.
Your soul was seeking revenge.
You soul was full of envy.
Envy for the world, envy for me.
I became addicted to your beauty, inside and out.
But the devil that is envy was always about.
You ravaged me, stole every last grain of self love I had learned.
Stole my body, stole my self respect, stole my sanity.
Yet i still yearned, you were a drug I couldn’t let go of.
Our souls loved deeply, I know this to be true.
The hurt just became, too big of a burden to bare.
Now out of my life, my soul cries for you.
I remembered the hurt, i cried for it more.
It’s been a long summer, so hard, so exhausting.
Lifting myself up, greater then I had before
I still have love for you, but i love myself more.
The time has come to shut the door.
The star crossed lovers can be no more.
xox Ali May
July’s end will be a year since I’ve seen him. I hold a place for him in my heart, but I know he did horrible things to me that I did not deserve. I understand though the nuance and the hurt people hurt people. He still deserves the full hammer of the law.